For once, I agree with you… a little. In my short 17 years in this world, I have witnessed suffering that most have not seen. Being the son of undocumented immigrants doesn’t help, really. I know how men can be arrogant, how they can be cold hearted, and how even the smallest things can corrupt. (I won’t go into detail, but think of the situation in Mexico. I have more relation to that than I would like.) I know how living a life of just and good men can be difficult, how there are many people with such conniving, thieving minds. Such arrogance that they think that they own the whole damn world.
I know how one can feel about the way people treat and a treated in this world. I love it when I see such destruction against many of the immoral hypocrites. I love it when their faces lioght up in fear when they realize they don’t own the world. I love that scared expression, that desolate look of desperation on their face when they discover that they are all worthless pawns towards greater cosmic forces. I love how they can just laugh off with such human ignorance one day, and cry hopelessly for their own kin the next. I know that feeling. But I can’t stand it when I feel that. I can’t stand myself when I feel that, I feel like a monster. The way you go off talking as if they are getting what they deserve, I disagree. How you call all people who enjoy their lives as lackwit and idiotic, cursing them towards suffering, because they have not a tenth of your moral character as you say, is arrogant. I can’t stand that. I just can’t. We all are not right to judge each other, at all.
Those hypocritical fucks are just that, hypocritical. I can’t stand them either. I can’t stand the way they come off as the only good in the world, the only ones fit to judge others and can condemn people to hell for one small fluke in their character. But to wish that. Wish evil upon them. How is that better? Instead of becoming a better person for your experiences, and adding childlike naivety and idealism towards the cynicism that one recieves as they grow in such a crapsack world, you go off damning everyone because they are blissfully ignorant of such things? That is your response? Though I do agree with the high of such a feeling, I cannot agree wholelheartedly with that reasoning. Even if you have strong moral character, you are still prone to the fallings and misgivings of humanity, I don’t judge you because of that. Though I do not agree with it, I understand human nature. I can understand both sides of your case. All I ask for is that you understand their plight, and forgive those that have gone against you. Holding in such anger is not healthy, and can turn you against your family and friends. You become an outcast, a recluse with nothing but hatred towards the world. You become a monster. I know this, for I was one.
And after all that, what good came from all your work to become a just man? So please, it’s okay to revel in destruction once in a while, but don’t let that feeling control you. I’m literally shaking right now with what I am feeling about all this. Try to not only be a just man, but help those around you to be just, after all, “Cynical realism is the intelligent man’s best excuse for doing nothing in an intolerable situation.” Remember that.