I’m so isolated in life that I need to communicate with other people by being on the internet to stop my loneliness only temporarily, that really does not bug me by itself. The fact that I find this normal bugs me, I don’t suppose humans are supposed to like being alone. Conversations have never really troubled me much, I’ve always been fairly good at them, although I dread them. The topic usually goes from me asking questions, them talking about themselves, and me learning a bunch of irrelevant humbug. After awhile of doing this I just started to look at a majority of people as essentially the same, they all take the same boring path in life. There have been a few people I’ve talked to that have been worthwhile, but usually it’s better to just blow them off by irritating them or literally trolling them in real life to make myself annoying.
So I just sit here bored, searching the internet for things that will affect me emotionally to distract me from the pain of being alone forever until I die. So now I’m getting desensitized from all this irrelevant horsecrap I should not care about. My cynicism has pretty much consumed me. Perhaps I should discipline myself to only think positively? I could just go mad by lacking emotions. Both are irrelevant as each other.
TL:DR: I am a self-aware Faggot.