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me 120 tubmieted hous agoy Dev.oaa As an aspiring female game dev. I'm considering leaving themdustry over #Gamergate, and here's why. ro #GG Hello, guys. I was an aspining female indie dev, and I'm posting on a throwaway for reasons that Iil detail below. Ever since I was a child video games have been one of my favorite forms of escapism. I have Asperger's Syndrome and dinical depression. and I was heavily bullied as a child. Games were my escape from the insanity that I dealt with in my day-to-day life. I fell in love with the stories, the characters, and the interactivity present in many games of many genres. They helped me cope with a not-so-good childhood and the hard times I had at school. I found my passion for designing games quite early in life. I created a choose-your-own-adventure game when I was only 11. and as poorly drawn and short as it was, it was playable and people enjoyed it Never in my Me as a passionate gamer have l ever been offended by sexualized characters, violence, or crude humor in games. I was never harassed for being a female gamer, guys though it was cool. I never needed a character to look like me in order to identify with them and appreciate their stories. I've identified and bonded with characters of all genders, ages, and races. I never bought into the SW rhetoric that I should feel bad for enjoying all kinds of game Enter the *Gamergate situation, which I have been following dosely from the start. I've known for quite some time that there were plenty of other women like myself who were sick of gaming journalism and this idiotic moral panic regarding gender/sexuality in video games Yet, despite one of the people spouting this rhetoric now using "Believe Women as her motto of sorts, she wishes to drown out the ces of women who disagree with her, women lke me. How many times on major news sites have we seen that the main driving force behind GamerGate is 'white male misogynist trolls? How many PoC and women like me have been posting in NotYourShield, desperately trying to have our voices heard by the media. yet they deliberately ignore us and drown us out? I have never seen so many news outlets lat-out lie about a story as they have with Gamergate. They took a story, and deliberately took out parts twisted the meaning. and took doctored information (the IRC logs) as fact. I think the public attack on (rational) ferminist Christina Hoff Sommers was the last straw for me. Between every girl on NYS being accused of sockpuppetry and misogyny long after providing valid proof that they are who they claim to be, and the attack on a woman who marched on for women's rights before more SJWs were born I've realized a fact that I cannot ignore SWs do not care if you are a woman or PoC if you go against their narrative. Their agenda. They don't see us as people, they see us as tools. Anita does not care about women like me. Chelsea van Valkenburg ('Zoe Quinn does not care about women like me. They HATE women like me. If I made a game with』sexualized protagonist or it had some crude/politically incorrect humor in it. I risk my name and face being thrown around the internet on all of these anti-GG sites open for ridicule and slander. Being a fellow woman is not a valid excuse for them anymore, as they have had more and more women like me rise against them. After almost two decades of bullying, I could not handle that. My mental health would be in even more danger than it already is I am sick of being used as a tool, I am sick of being silenced by news outlets like VICE Polygon, Kotaku, and Cracked just like KC-vidya-rants (who was also female and was slandered by VICE) was. I am sick of major news outlets defending someone who cheated on and abused their partner just because Chelsea happened to be female. I have had my personal family ife destroyed by infidelity. so seeing Chelsea get away with her actions like the media is allowing her to do upsets me deeply on a personal level. Though I may sound weak for it. I have shed tears over this situation. My dream career is threatened, and what Chelsea did to her ex triggers a lot of uncomfortable and painful memories for me. I'm net quite sure how the people blogging in her defense sleep at night. I personally believe that they aren't just misinformed, deep down they KNOW that they are lying about who Chelsea is and what #GameGate is actually about (corruption). And I cannot trust journalists and media outlets like that with my games and my reputation. Just like Sommers and some of my anti-SJW dev friends, being female will not save me from doing, harassment, and slander on news site The harassment I got was never from these made-up 'evil sexist trolls. It was from bigots masquerading as socal justice champions. So thank you, Anita. Thank you. Chelsea. You have destroyed my childhood dream set back actual women in the industry, and made ones like me afraid to even enter it. Because I now know I cannot trust the indie community, and cannot trust the media not to spin false stories. I am terrified to enter the industry, and just make the games that I want to.

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Like...is there any solution to this? Should we start something?
Jalen Hutchinson Studied Culinary Science at Culinary Institute of America (Graduated 2014). Author has 304 answers and 740.1K answer views. 5y Not that I care that much either way, but it did expose a lot of corrupt game developers and game journalists. X Journalists would make claims of people like Anita Sarkeesian "playing video games all her life" when she openly admitted many times she is not a gamer and only starter recently (when it wasn't for an interview). Various developers trading sex or money for good reviews got exposed, journalists who accepted got exposed. People became a bit more critical about supporting a game just because the developer has a victim complex stating tat their game could have only failed because of sexism, instead of their own poor developing skills. What really sealed the deal was opposition often faking their own harassment. Anita sarkeesian and Zoe Quinn have been caught multiple times screenshotting "harassment" while showing that the harrasser's account name in the login. Or when someone called the police to help Sarkeesian against a "very real threat" she was posting about, only for police to find the harasser's messages were coming from her IP address. I just want honesty from the community, and the lies were mostly exposed by the "dreaded" gamergate. 1.3K views • View upvotes 26
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