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sethisto Psychological Advice? -long Sorry if this is long, but I gave up on psychology forums lol. Maybe a furry might know something more on what exacty is my crazyness? So I'l start off by saying ive always had low confidence. I'm 21 years old. From grade school to now I never had much self confidence at all. During P.E. I'd stand in places where I knew I wouldn't have to catch the ball, and avoid competition lke the plague fI could help it. I quit when I'm winning, because I know Im going to screw up eventualy and prefer to leave a winner than a loser I also have 0 confidence when it comes to talking to women, so I have never had a girlfriend, and never even gotten close to one Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 149 I also suck at talking to my family members. If they are around, it feels like im frozen or slowed or something. I can barely get full sentences off and talk realy quiet. I can't help it, Ijust can't talk around them. I usualy have my friends meet me elsewhere because I'm so silent here in my house. I think they know this, but never realy mention it. When I'm in my room I babber pretty calmly on voice programs with my friends playing video games online, so I'm sure they have heard the normal outside the house me. I also feel like I have to fake absolutely everything when it comes to social interactions. I have seperate "groups" of friends, that I hate introducing to one another because I'm a completely different person in each group. In one, im really quiet and sort of sit in the background minding my own business, in another, Im known for never shutting up, and in the 3rd, I take more of a leadership role. I noticed that the longer I hang out with a group, the less social and more distant I get. I never actually try to make friends, they sort of just come to me. I don't even know how to approach random people unless I am completely alone and know that no one I know is around. So this one is realy weird, and try not to laugh, but go ahead because I/all my friends usually do, though this is completely serious. Ever since middle school, I have had a huge obsession with female dragons. They have to be cute too, not just any female dragon, Im picky. One of them I have been obsessed with since the beginning. Shes just some random one I found on the internet when I was lke 13. I would think about her for hours! every night thats all I would think about, this lasted all the yup untl... well last year, when I found another one who is in an actual video game Cynder is her name. I've replayed her game 5-6 times, just because Im so obsessed with her. It's even orst than the last dragon. Every day, thats all I think about! I hug my pillow pretending it's herl So these dragons have sort of replaced the whole need for a girlfriend, at least in my twisted litthe world. I have a big imagination, and zone out a lot which tends to make time go by pretty quickiy when I'm bored. Ive always been content with them though, they were my dragons. I'd put them on binder because I thought it was entertaining when people would comment on how dumb they look I know it's wrong. I'm pretty sure any obsession to this degree would be. But I can't resist! I love these dragons! I don't know what I would think about without them! The idea of not being obsessed with them is alen and strange to me. It's been what, 9 years? I spend a lot of time online, I always have. It's always been comfortable here. And I never shut up about my dragons onlinel I never sought help about it because I never wanted it Everyone I know knows about this, at least I think they do. I only put Cynder everywhere, cel phone background, computer background, xbox background, pictures of her on my wall. You would think they would get the hint -Issue 3-- And finaly, issue 3. Now that I'm getting older, all of this seems like a bad idea. I don't have a job anymore, I quit that. No girlfriend obviously, and I usualy try to avoid social contact, even with friends. Everyone seems to be out there drinking and having a good time, but Ijust can't do it. Ive never tried alcohol, and really don't want to. It's almost lke a hidden code in my head to avoid it. Everyone has girlfriends, which I am slightly jealous of whenever I hear about it. I don't really have any motivation to go do this stuff though. I hate parties, I usually end up not knowing what to say and just avoiding everyone until I can leave without making a scene. I'm lonely and want a girifriend, but just don't have the confidence to get one. It almost feels lke I'm cheating on my invisible girl dragon obsession when I think about going for this. I realy don't want to lose that. It's so engraved into my bra Another problem was always the time commitment that comes with a girlfriend. I avoid my friends calls sometimes just because I don't feel like doing anything usually. It's like I'm waiting for some unknown thing to happen and just feel ike sitting around bored. I can't imagine a girfriend walking in randomy during the day, i hate having to do things unplanned ike that. Though ike most things, if I replace that with Cynder, I'd do anything for her It's funny, If m watching a movie, and some relationship breaks up or something invoving 2 people, or one of them dies, i realy don't care, and think the movie is boring. But if I put myself and one of my dragons in that picture, suddenly I can relate! Id hate to lose them! I also have a lot of random medical issues that keep me from doing things sometimes. Everything from rritable bowel syndrome, to overactive bladder. I had plans to get a overnight stocking job during the summer, but ended up with a bunch of urology related issues that made me skip out on that. It almost feels like it's too far into the summer to go for not now, or maybe my motivation just waned. Some s I'm motivated, thats how I got my last job. Then a week or 3 straight of just not wanting to do anything but sleep and obsess over my dragons, posting them all over the internet and searching for I play a lot of video games, but can't even pick up any new ones after finishing Cynders game. That's all I ever want to play, everything else seems completely boring now. That's probably the worst part of al of this. I can't start anything. Theres a ton more... but I think I covered most of the important points.

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