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Ground Zero This is a more fluffy, personal bloggy type thing I wrote this the day after we walked off set of GAME JAM,two days before today when we posted our articles. For more context, see Jared's coverage, Adriel's thoughts, Robin's thoughts, and My thoughts. like to do this thing sometimes with other gamespeople when we're doing something games adjacent and things get really surreal-I just say "because videogames". Acknowledging that I've ended up in extreme situations due to what a lot of people consider a silly pastime for children fulfills my love and respect of exactly how absurd the universe is. Get fanmail that thanks me for someone turning their life around while I'm drinking sake in a hot tub in downtown San Francisco? Wow. Videogames, man. Receive a photoshopped image of a map of every place I've ever lived carved in blood in the back of my current partner with a link to an mp3 file attached? H--------. Videogames Stuck in the middle of the desert on a train with no power at 4am, lit up by the glow of dozens of laptops and christmas lights? V-i-d-e-o-g-a-m- e-S This is one of those moments on crack. In this moment,I am sitting in a messy apartment in LA. I'm physically mentally, and creatively destroyed after one of the most batshit experiences of my life, which I am legally bound to not talk about. I'm watching the only journalist who was there, who saw everything, pace back and forth in his messy apartment, retelling the story on the phone. He wasn't expecting me over - I had to escape a bad situation several days before I had anticipated to leave, and he's an old friend so we're weathering the gathering storm together. We refer to this place as our bunker from the wrath of a major company, and we stand on the precipice of something major I've been involved in a big enough games scandal before, the twitter- issue-of-the-day, the kind that blows up everyone in games' feed for about 2 days and is quickly forgotten about thereafter. I didn't see it coming then I lost my cool and ranted about online harassment candidly and next thing you know it I'm seeing friends of friends talk about me on facebook and have since gained a permanent twitch response to people using my full name like I'm a google search word instead of a person. It's different this time. We know it's coming, even if we're not sure exactly what "it" is. There's a deadline and between myself and him we can see most of the moving pieces. At least most of the ones we think are there, who ever really knows. It keeps escalating. We know this is going to be big. It's already big It's strange being in this space with him. I can't say anything but I can watch him do his work and get insights from what's happening on the other end of things. We get emails saying things like "MAIORBRAND is on the warpath." and "Three more people got fired". I'm right now covering him covering us. Partly just because I can't speak for myself without summoning multimillion dollar lawsuits into my life and I need to say SOMETHING. Buti see get bigger and bigger like tida sun the charts in terms of size and weirdness that I can aching shore, and I'm staring up at the massive resigned look on my face because it's gone so far off ve ven it Because videogames. ON THE NEXT It feels like every time we go to sleep this week it's PISODE OF DRAGON BALL Z" he says, and I giggle through my failing voice because it's oh god so true The next morning we wake up to his phone ringing from some very rvo riend that ther onze ance that I get sued for close to one llion dollars soon. I also tell him that l'm so happy to be surrounded with people willing to risk so much in the pursuit of doing what we feel is the right thing. I'm so inspired by the other woman who is standing up and telling her story, by my normally pixie-like friend who has used the phrase "waves of blood" in an email earlier and aggressively pursuing speaking out when I contractually can't, by my journalist friend not pulling a single punch when his fists are aimed at the people who pay for the apartment we're hiding out in This feels like the calm before the story. I don't know what the day after tomorrow is going to bring. I don't know what the next few months of my life are going to look like, or any of us for that matter. I'm not sure anything like this, at this scale, has ever happened in games before He's resigned to losing his job, I'm worried I'll end up getting sued back to the stone age by what are likely some of the most powerful lawyers in the world when I already am destitute. But I don't regret what I did. I don't regret any of this. I'm normally so anxious, but I have this weird calm about the subject. I know that standing up for myself, my friends and my medium was the right thing to do and I wouldn't change any single bit of it. Maybe even if they do fire him and come after us it'll get some good conversations going about how to keep this from happening in the future, or what doing the right thing in this medium is, or even just draw attention to the fact that indie exists and is wonderful who knows. And I'm ok with that. And so is he. Because it's the right thing to do. Because we care about this medium we find ourselves in, and the people who work in it. Because videogames. ◆ WRITING 72 NOTES

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zoë “lycan subscribe" quinn O @UnburntWitch - 1h Since I'm getting a lot of emails about this: no, l've got nothing to do with That TV show. I learned about its existence at the same time as the rest of you. No, I was not asked, consulted etc. and if I had been asked, I wouldn't have been ok with it. That's all. 5 17 42 408 zoë “lycan subscribe" quinn O @UnburntWitch · 1h I continue to reject any oversimplification of GamerGate that leaves out its roots in white supremacy, domestic violence, and the pre-existing societal issues it capitalized in favor of a more convenient and inaccurate narrative about it being solely about women in games. t7 78 5 510 @UnburntWitch - 57m zoë “lycan subscribe" quinn If I am portrayed in it, it's without my involvement or any input on my end, and is happening without my consent. If I'm written out of it, well. I'm not so sure how you can present it as an “honest" story. But that's really not my problem, either. 27 10 204 zoë “lycan subscribe" quinn ... @UnburntWitch I don't want to do any interviews on this, I don't want to give any other statements aside from this. It's bad enough having all of this pop up again without any warning or regard for how I might feel about it, so l'd like to just try and ignore it. Thank you for understanding.
zoë "lycan subscribe" quinn O @UnburntWitch I haven't stopped screaming this for the last seven years because the scarlet letter on me hasn't come off, the harassment hasn't stopped, and people still refuse to learn a god damned thing about what happened to me (and others). Ignoring history enables the repetition of it. * Margaret Sullivan O @Sulliview 7h The AP's treatment of 22-year-old journalist Emily Wilder shows how much newsroom managers still have to learn about bad-faith attacks and online harassment of their staffers, seven years after Gamergate should have taught them. My column washingtonpost.com/lifestyle/medi. Show this thread 7:00 pm · 27 May 2021 Twitter for iPhone zoë "lycan subscribe" quinn O @UnburntWitch Replying to @UnburntWitch You might be sick of hearing about it, but I promise I'm more sick of having to say it. It is nothing short of a waking nightmare to be constantly impacted by it for the better part of 10 years despite all attempts to move the f--- on, only to have people say it never happened. 7:08 pm 27 May 2021 Twitter for iPhone cory barlog O @corybarlog 10m ... Replying to @UnburntWitch people are just the f-----' worst. O 1 zoë "lycan subscribe" quinn O @UnburntWitch · 7m I'm losing my mind dude, there's honestly Discourse saying gg never even happened and wasn't that bad anyway like 2014 never stopped. ... O 11 Cliff Bleszinski O @therealcliffyb - 6m JFC
zoë "leonardo doujinshi" quinn O @UnburntWitch - 1h wow what a "fun" idea. assholes. O DiscussingFilm @DiscussingFilm - 9h Ellen Page and Paris Berelc have been cast in the gaming comedy 1UP' for BuzzFeed Studios. The film is described as being in the vein of 'Pitch Perfect' but set in the world of esports with a Gamergate backdrop. (Source: link.hollywoodreporter.com/click/21952263..) IB CAD 44 27 251 M 1.6K zoë "leonardo doujinshi" quinn O @UnburntWitch 1h love that the psycho ex who ruined my life and the alt-right mob he drummed up basically seems to have won the disinformation wars given the replies to this. big props to everyone who knew better but stayed ""neutral"" during gg. O 6 27 52 O 829 zoë "leonardo doujinshi" quinn O @UnburntWitch - 1h fun reminder: the game review I supposedly "bought" with sex literally never existed in any way, shape, or form, and the psycho ex who kicked up the mob even said so himself. 000 I hate that this still somehow is considered a controversial statement. 27 78 O 771 zoë "leonardo doujinshi" quinn O @UnburntWitch · 1h I hate that I have to keep saying it but I don't know what else to do when people just let the waters be muddied for this long and my existence has been politicized to the point where I can't just live my life. 000 277 O 497 zoë "leonardo doujinshi" quinn O @UnburntWitch - 1h 000 They even named the protagonist "Vivian" so they know enough to know better than to make this a fun comedic romp. O 10 337 zoë "leonardo doujinshi" quinn O @UnburntWitch 57m I'm so sick of talking about this even though it STILL impacts my life every day. I struggle to live my life around it, recover from it, and not let it break me and then stuff like this comes up from time to time and kicks me in the teeth. O 4 27 8 O 386 zoë "leonardo doujinshi" quinn O 000 @UnburntWitch Replying to @UnburntWitch Sorry. I know a million more important and f----- up things are happening rn. Logging tf off. 1:57 AM - Oct 31, 2020 - Twitter for iPhone ZOE QUINN GAMERGATE
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