Regarding Lawly There was a chat log shared from back in 2010 when I was 19. About this: I'm not a p--------, and I'm not a groomer. I was an idiot teenager who made dirty jokes. I had no intention of doing anything to this person, quite the opposite in fact. This post is taking two separate things over a decade apart and showing them together. When I was a teenager, I said lots of dumb things I shouldn't have. I'm 34 years old now and can't stand by anything I may have typed that long ago. I don't think anyone could. What I can do is tell you my intentions. To give an idea of how long ago that chat was: When I was 19, TRG didn't exist, I'd never appeared at a single convention, I hadn't started college, I still lived at home, I made videos as a hobby/wasn't professional, and I was working on my first Pokemon Let's Play. I don't think something that old should be treated as representative of the person I am now. In any sense. It was so long ago that I learned the contents of this log existed when you did. I was extremely hurt to be judged for something from so long ago, and that the headline was worded like I assaulted someone. The internet was a very different place then, and being facetious was everywhere. It was like our escape from censorship, and the edgier, the better. It was easy to get caught up in the moment and say things I didn't mean when I was that young, too. You need look no further than my terrible old videos for the tasteless things I thought were hilarious at that age or how my sense of humor has changed. Or how internet culture as a whole changed. It might be hard to imagine, but back then, people commonly threw around vulgar language and joked about horrible things like it was nothing.

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After communicating with Emile, we would like this message out there. Yes, Emile and I were engaged. Keeping it private was a mutual decision, especially through the first several years. After that, when Emile expressed interest in becoming public, I was hesitant because of how much social pressure was already put on our relationship. He was respectful of that, and we proceeded with the status quo. We do not condone the harassment of any party, and the omission was an effort to prevent speculation about our now very separate personal lives. Ultimately it was a personal matter and a joint decision between two adults. I would like to reiterate that my objective with my previous post was just to be left alone, and that has not changed. I was being asked a lot of invasive questions with increasing frequency, as I'm sure Emile has as well. We do not want to be associated, we do not want to hear of each other moving forward- a mutual sentiment as our paths are now completely separate and we want to move on with our lives. Although I cannot be a part of his journey, I wish Emile luck on his healing and his path forward.

Regardless of my clarifications and context, I definitely still made mistakes and learned lessons, as well as learned new things about how my mind works. I don't want to get carried away and make it sound like I'm 100% blameless. I needed psychiatric help for my depression and roleplay behavior. I took your criticism of my person seriously and am forever working every day to ensure nothing like this could ever happen again. It will not happen again. I'm a fan of numbers, so let me show you. Since privately confronted about this, I: •Saw my therapist 6 times before anything was made public. •Completed 11 behavioral health sessions with a psychologist. Continuing to do so for the foreseeable future. •Spent 5 nights in a mental ward and have met with my doctors twice since then. •Read numerous medical articles to understand my conditions better and how to avoid mistakes. •Have never missed a dosage of 4 medications and supplements that better regulate my brain activity. •Have not ever wanted to roleplay again. •Feel more self-aware and cognizant than at any point in my life up to this point. I can be absolutely certain I would never disappoint you like this again. And I say that knowing you will hold me to a higher standard than ever. I have and always will continue to give it my all in the psychiatric help I sought out. In my mind, nothing after my apology changed that I meant every word and was already in the process of making good on all of this. Months before anything went public. Some of these, I learned and grew from many years ago. I would have been here to tell you this sooner had my mental trauma not kept me from it. I needed to heal.

Moving Forward I'd like to make an ode to my friends. Several reached out the night I came home from the hospital. They didn't want me to be alone and still believed I was a good person. Heck, I think some of you believed I was more innocent than I did. It took me a while to see this your way. I love all of you, my friends. Even if you were critical of me, I cannot bring myself to not love you. Some of it was things I already agreed with, some of it was things I needed to hear. And some of it was telling me this wasn't as bad as I thought. I want to thank my best friend Tim/NintendoCapriSun. He handled so many decisions in all of this for me when I was not well enough to make them for myself. He cooked for me every day when I wasn't allowed near the knives. I think you really saved me. Please support him with all you can. I didn't say this last time. I'm so sorry for all the heartache and worry I caused my friends and caused you. I worked hard every day to make sure I would never make you feel like this again and could be dependable once more. I really didn't mean to do harm here, and feel I've learned about myself in ways I didn't know I needed to. These are positive things.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 10

This is the tone of the conversation that led to the roleplay. I think, honestly, that it reads as pretty silly from both of us. I remember when this happened; I was just playing a video game and laughing to myself when she'd add to it because it was all so out-there and dumb. I cackled at her Sticker Star joke. My girlfriend wanted to add that Emily's decision to include personal information about her was greatly upsetting to her. Emily needlessly published the territory my girlfriend lives in; this was not public knowledge and did nothing to prove any point. In Emily's screenshots, I'm open about having a girlfriend and told her my SO was fine with all of this. Our relationship had no bearing on any of this and never needed to be brought up. I also want to say that I never lied about how this was resolved privately. In my original statement, I said "When you communicated this to me privately a few months ago, I apologized to you directly and promised I would never repeat this kind of behavior again with anyone else." I worded things that way to protect the friend who mediated, as involving others was something I wanted to avoid. I promised my friend I would never repeat this, we discussed it for hours, they told Emily how it went, and then I sent Emily this apology: Chuggaaconroy 11/18/2023 12:20 AM Name of friend who Emily reached out to talked to me about this. I apologize for everything I did. I will not reach out again. I am sorry. I never claimed we had a conversation about it. I said it was communicated privately, which it was. I don't think a friend being there contradicts that.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 9

GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:56 PM Yeah!! But also dang! You got me! Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:56 PM Yep. I got you. hugs tighter, now a little uncomfortable I'm gonna teach you a lesson! sweeps your legs out from under you and let's go of you as I do! You fall to the floor! I grab into each of your shoes and YANK them off, leaving you barefoot! I stand back across the room from you "Ow! Gross! Does it hurt knowing that's what they really look like?" really look like?" GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:59 PM No no no!!!!! You can't do this to me!! Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:59 PM Ohhh... silly girl. I'm not done. "You won't be getting these back before your doctor's appointment! Enjoy explaining those feet to the doctor, who will undoubtedly be wanting to study them!" I turn and run out the front door holding shoes!! Eep!! Bad! Bad! You can't be seen like this in public! You need something to hide your feet with... but... I took the only two pairs of shoes or socks! GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 11:05 PM Noooo I will wrap them with a blanket Cocoon myself Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 11:06 PM And run outside after me like that? GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 11:06 PM I can hop >

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 11

I don't retract any apology about hurting her or pestering her for a reply. Nothing I've said changes that I did that. I just felt this important context was left out. This is what I was working with and why I was so comfortable doing this. I kept asking if it was okay and kept doing it because she said she enjoyed it. I wanted to be open with someone I cared about rather than just assume, and gave her my word that I wouldn't go into sexual territory for myself. It still wasn't a good way to act; I just hope it's understandable how I could think this way. Due to an autism spectrum disability, I struggle with understanding social cues or people's limits. I don't hide behind this as a shield from criticism; I've learned to live with it. I learned I couldn't always trust myself to say the right thing or not take things too far due to my inability to see social situations the same way as other people. Doctors have told me this is what happens with me. To make up for this weakness, I learned many years ago to be open with people, relying on permission, asking questions, and requesting others to tell me if something becomes too much. That is what I did with Emily, but despite that, she never once communicated that I said anything that made her uncomfortable until she was considering going public. I was confused when she started ignoring my messages. I don't do well with being ignored; it just makes me worry a lot about the other person because I do best with open communication. When I have nothing to work with, I can't really understand what someone is thinking, and in this case, I thought she liked how it was going. It usually leads to me just wishing each day will be the day I get to hear they're okay. I've learned now that repeated messages like this can be stressful to others. I did everything she wanted me to do once she told me she didn't like it, and took it into my own hands to get mental help and learn more about my issues. It's perfectly fine to revoke consent or decide it's getting to be too much, but this wasn't told to me; I was told the opposite of that. This isn't a case of, “I only listened when I got caught." I did listen.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 8

Here, I'll even give you another pair too E Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:42 PM You... Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:42 PM You... GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:43 PM You can use these later on for potential boss fights or enemy encounters Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:43 PM Oh f--- off GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:43 PM Lmao Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:43 PM I see you're just putting them back on like nothing happened after tormenting me... You weren't gonna give them up GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:45 PM I'm never gonna give them up Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:45 PM You're asking for it. You're even showing me up at my own shtick! I'm warning you. GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:50 PM Do your worst GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:50 PM Do your worst Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:50 PM Okay, fine... Fine. goes over and gives you a hug GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:52 PM Ah!! I didn't expect this tactic!! Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:52 PM Feels nice? hugs you tighter, but not uncomfortably

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 7

(The next day) Here's what an uncut talk between us looked like as it transitioned into roleplay. GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:31 PM Ooooh PS2 was the console I remember first really getting into I feel like I missed a lot of Wii games tbh! I didn't really get to actually have a Wii I mean I kinda had a Wii but not really Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:32 PM Surprising! I felt like everyone had one, usually alongside one of the other two. So, like... I feel for you. I really do. But. If you're still coughing and sick .... what do you need shoes for? GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:35 PM Hmm I mean yeah if you want them, go for it! GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:35 PM Hmm I mean yeah if you want them, go for it! Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:35 PM Damn, that was easy... GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:36 PM I mean I'm sick, far be it from me to put up a fight!! Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:36 PM Is this a trick? GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:36 PM Why would I trick you? Here are the shoes. They're normal shoes Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:38 PM ACK!!! Nooo!! GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:42 PM Here you go!! O

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 6

Chuggaaconroy 09/14/2023 12:25 AM Yeah! Being forward with you cause I'd rather not keep anything from you and let you make the best decision for you, I am into that, but only with my significant other. I just also like talking about shoes with people cause it's also an interest. I talked with my SO about this when we started dating and she told me I can talk about shoes with other people cause it isn't sexual with my friends. It's just something I enjoy talking about with my friends too. I know that might be a lot to share, and I'm sorry if it is, but I feel it's best to just be open with people and consider what I'd like to know if I was in their position. GreatCheshire 09/14/2023 12:30 AM No no I'm glad to know!! Good to have that openness and common understanding Chuggaaconroy 09/14/2023 12:31 AM Thank you... that's very kind of you to see it that way. I'm always about communication even if it's about complicated stuff, cause why would you not tell your friends important things if you want to keep them in your life? A lot of people are not so kind about this sort of thing on the internet! Chuggaaconroy 09/14/2023 12:45 AM Haha, sorry to ping again. I just won't be up too much longer and want to finish talking.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 5

She would encourage my roleplay and jokes about shoes, and even consented and participated. I checked in multiple times to make sure it was really okay and trusted her with a sensitive part of myself so that she wouldn't feel misled or like I had ulterior motives. I think that's also why I didn't particularly try to hide this. I thought I was being dumb with consenting friends, and at worst, that it was a little embarrassing and my kink was probably one reason I liked the subject. My partner read through what Emily posted and thought the tone was silly, not over the line of what's sexual or romantic for me. I'd trust her opinion on that more than my own. I was also evaluated by medical professionals about my shoe talk; their view was that it was a way to feel close to a friend and an escape in times of high stress and tragedy - it would resurface whenever things got particularly bad. Chuggaaconroy 09/12/2023 12:38 AM Yeah... YouTube doesn't give sick days. Hope you don't mind all the foot jokes... I guess I just latched onto that after you told me about it? I'm not sure if it's a sensitive subject for you or anything. GreatCheshire 09/12/2023 12:39 AM Nah it's fine!! I don't mind Chuggaaconroy 09/12/2023 12:40 AM Oh, okay! I thought about it more and I was like "ooo, I hope she doesn't have a negative association with that or something" GreatCheshire 09/12/2023 8:18 PM Nah it's all good!! Also I hope your day has been good!!

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 4

Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 10:39 PM So like Do you have a PO Box? GreatCheshire 06/04/2023 10:42 PM Not at the moment, no! Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 10:43 PM Oh... well, I was going to see if I could partake in birthday niceness. GreatCheshire 06/04/2023 10:43 PM oh! well that's very kind of you! you can just have my address, if you want! Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 10:45 PM Oh wow! Didn't expect that! So we're on address basis, hahaha. GreatCheshire 06/04/2023 10:46 PM lol well i trust you! you're a friend! Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 10:49 PM Thanks! I've thought of you as a fast friend too. GreatCheshire 06/04/2023 10:50 PM i'm happy to hear that!! oh! have you been playing zelda any? L

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 3

The break here is just talking about my video, etc. Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 10:17 PM Do you got any goings on other than having holes in your shoes? GreatCheshire 06/04/2023 10:23 PM Not much! Got back from Vancouver last week. Visited and stayed with them. That was a wonderful time. Besides that, it's just been settling back in, playing Zelda, and trying to figure out what my month is going to look like planning wise Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 10:28 PM How wonderful that is! I hope you're having a fantastic pride month too. You deserve so much. GreatCheshire 06/04/2023 10:28 PM thank you!! it's my birth month too so hopefully it's a good one!! Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 10:29 PM Oh shoot! When's your birthday? GreatCheshire 06/04/2023 10:29 PM June 19! Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 10:32 PM Wow another civil rights day!

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 2

C Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 9:44 PM Nice sneakers! GreatCheshire 06/04/2023 9:45 PM LOL thank you!! I need new ones tbh My everyday pair is starting to see some damage lol Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 9:45 PM Seems sadly typical due to thin fabric GreatCheshire 06/04/2023 9:45 PM Yeaaaah the curse of liking shoes that aren't durable Got them on sale though so for $20, can't complain Hope you've been doing well!! Chuggaaconroy 06/04/2023 9:47 PM Hey, thank you! I just finished editing a video that was nuts to make...

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 1

Regarding Lady Emily In 2023, Emily contacted me through a friend who spelled out how our conversations made her feel. I was shocked by it, apologized to her, and to some friends I had said/done similar things with. It was well-received among the people I talked to and I'd like to say here that I'm sorry to anyone who hasn't heard this from me. I'd hoped to tell you on my own terms. This was genuinely the first time this behavior was met so negatively to my face. At the time, I was told that this would not go public as long as I never did it again (which I have not done since). I took it to heart and sought professional help immediately. I felt like s--- for months and was seeing a therapist about it every week, and by the start of January I felt I was making some great strides in improving. I took Emily's words seriously and was doing my best to take responsibility, but unfortunately, it all ended up going public anyway. It crushed me inside that despite my efforts, Emily and many others would see me as irredeemable. I want to dispel a few things said about me by Emily. I didn't "ask her for foot pictures constantly." I asked once if I could see a picture of her wearing the shoes I bought for her, which I honestly didn't realize would make her uncomfortable. I've gone through our logs and could find no evidence of that claim that I was “constantly asking" or that it was of her bare feet - I don't think this is a fair summary of our chats. My kink doesn't define every aspect of my life. I bought Emily shoes because she told me hers were damaged and needed replacing, then told me it was almost her birthday half an hour later. It was spur of the moment, and I just wanted to help out a friend. I've also made jokes about feet and bought shoes for most of my friends throughout my life, even for people like Tim.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Allegations 2

Regarding Masae Masae and I dated for 10 years and we were engaged to be married. It fell apart about three years ago now. In every video you've ever seen us together in, I was her boyfriend and our friends all knew about it. You're probably wondering how this stayed a secret for so long. We both wanted our private lives to be hidden at the beginning. After the engagement, I wanted to share it, but Masae stayed firm that it remained private. She was never clear to me as to why, but I respected her wishes until it was necessary to clear this up. We loved each other, and I thought the world of her, but we had a difficult breakup. Losing her was the hardest thing I'd ever gone through, and I regret how emotional I got about it and the way I handled it. That is what happened between us. We would both like to never hear about one another again and I sympathize with her getting bombarded about my situation after a breakup. The feelings she expressed go both ways and I don't wish to be associated with her going forward in any capacity either. As for her video cameo after the breakup, I did that because I believed we were still friends and just taking a break from each other, but once she told me she didn't want them, I stopped. I have strong feelings about the way it was said, but I am asking you nicely to not run away with speculation about her, because I know what that feels like. And if you felt bad for enjoying our old videos, don't. I still look back on them fondly, and personally assure you that we were happy and having fun in them. The time for that is just over now.

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Chuggaaconroy Foot Fetish / Sexual Harassment Allegations - Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lawly 1

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Regarding Lawly There was a chat log shared from back in 2010 when I was 19. About this: I'm not a p--------, and I'm not a groomer. I was an idiot teenager who made dirty jokes. I had no intention of doing anything to this person, quite the opposite in fact. This post is taking two separate things over a decade apart and showing them together. When I was a teenager, I said lots of dumb things I shouldn't have. I'm 34 years old now and can't stand by anything I may have typed that long ago. I don't think anyone could. What I can do is tell you my intentions. To give an idea of how long ago that chat was: When I was 19, TRG didn't exist, I'd never appeared at a single convention, I hadn't started college, I still lived at home, I made videos as a hobby/wasn't professional, and I was working on my first Pokemon Let's Play. I don't think something that old should be treated as representative of the person I am now. In any sense. It was so long ago that I learned the contents of this log existed when you did. I was extremely hurt to be judged for something from so long ago, and that the headline was worded like I assaulted someone. The internet was a very different place then, and being facetious was everywhere. It was like our escape from censorship, and the edgier, the better. It was easy to get caught up in the moment and say things I didn't mean when I was that young, too. You need look no further than my terrible old videos for the tasteless things I thought were hilarious at that age or how my sense of humor has changed. Or how internet culture as a whole changed. It might be hard to imagine, but back then, people commonly threw around vulgar language and joked about horrible things like it was nothing.

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