This is a throwaway account, because I'm only here to let out something I've been holding in for a long time. And what I've been holding in all this time is this: it doesn't matter if I'm banned from this site or any site.
And I say this because I've been holding a grudge for quite some time now, after I got banned from this site. As usual, I got banned for a stupid, ridiculous reason, and I didn't get a chance to defend myself or anything. I just got banned, and yet another outlet was taken away from me. I've been hating the people of this site a long time because of this, but now, I'm over it.
And I'm over it because this kind of shit doesn't surprise me anymore. There are some absolutely terrible people on this site, saying and posting some pretty awful things, yet they get to stay. But I make a couple mistakes, and I get banned, and forgotten, while everyone continues doing what they're doing.
Why is it my fault that the people I try to talk to never respond? Why is it my fault the ones who post controversial shit calm up like pussies whenever I call them out on it? Why is it my fault the Internet's full of assholes, and there's nothing I can do to get back at them for the shit they do.
Those are the ones I've held a grudge against the most; the people who make the Internet worse than it has to be, and I've wanted to get back at them for so long, and I ended up paying for it. I've been holding a grudge for so long, but it doesn't matter anymore.
And it doesn't matter anymore, because I don't need the approval of people on the Internet to be happy. That's what I've been searching for all this time, but what I've realized is all this is simply rotten. It's rotten, it's unfair, and I've tired of it all.
I thought earning people's respect online would be hard, but no matter what I do, there will always be people who'll simply hate me, for the dumbest reasons.
And that's exactly why I don't need the respect of anybody, neither on here nor any of these fucking sites. I've learned how to respect myself, because that's all that ever mattered at the end of the day. People online will betray you, sabotage you, rat you out, trick you, and I've had enough of that shit.
And they're all lucky it's all online, too, because things would've turned out a whole lot differently if this were real life, let me tell you.