Chuggaaconroy 05/22/2021 12:08 AM Chat with Lawly But absolutely, I would not have let you do that regardless of how well we got along. 05/22/2021 12:10 AM Younger me would be disappointed Current me appreciates it Chuggaaconroy 05/22/2021 12:10 AM Hahaha, good! I'm glad you grew up.

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After communicating with Emile, we would like this message out there. Yes, Emile and I were engaged. Keeping it private was a mutual decision, especially through the first several years. After that, when Emile expressed interest in becoming public, I was hesitant because of how much social pressure was already put on our relationship. He was respectful of that, and we proceeded with the status quo. We do not condone the harassment of any party, and the omission was an effort to prevent speculation about our now very separate personal lives. Ultimately it was a personal matter and a joint decision between two adults. I would like to reiterate that my objective with my previous post was just to be left alone, and that has not changed. I was being asked a lot of invasive questions with increasing frequency, as I'm sure Emile has as well. We do not want to be associated, we do not want to hear of each other moving forward- a mutual sentiment as our paths are now completely separate and we want to move on with our lives. Although I cannot be a part of his journey, I wish Emile luck on his healing and his path forward.

Regardless of my clarifications and context, I definitely still made mistakes and learned lessons, as well as learned new things about how my mind works. I don't want to get carried away and make it sound like I'm 100% blameless. I needed psychiatric help for my depression and roleplay behavior. I took your criticism of my person seriously and am forever working every day to ensure nothing like this could ever happen again. It will not happen again. I'm a fan of numbers, so let me show you. Since privately confronted about this, I: •Saw my therapist 6 times before anything was made public. •Completed 11 behavioral health sessions with a psychologist. Continuing to do so for the foreseeable future. •Spent 5 nights in a mental ward and have met with my doctors twice since then. •Read numerous medical articles to understand my conditions better and how to avoid mistakes. •Have never missed a dosage of 4 medications and supplements that better regulate my brain activity. •Have not ever wanted to roleplay again. •Feel more self-aware and cognizant than at any point in my life up to this point. I can be absolutely certain I would never disappoint you like this again. And I say that knowing you will hold me to a higher standard than ever. I have and always will continue to give it my all in the psychiatric help I sought out. In my mind, nothing after my apology changed that I meant every word and was already in the process of making good on all of this. Months before anything went public. Some of these, I learned and grew from many years ago. I would have been here to tell you this sooner had my mental trauma not kept me from it. I needed to heal.

Moving Forward I'd like to make an ode to my friends. Several reached out the night I came home from the hospital. They didn't want me to be alone and still believed I was a good person. Heck, I think some of you believed I was more innocent than I did. It took me a while to see this your way. I love all of you, my friends. Even if you were critical of me, I cannot bring myself to not love you. Some of it was things I already agreed with, some of it was things I needed to hear. And some of it was telling me this wasn't as bad as I thought. I want to thank my best friend Tim/NintendoCapriSun. He handled so many decisions in all of this for me when I was not well enough to make them for myself. He cooked for me every day when I wasn't allowed near the knives. I think you really saved me. Please support him with all you can. I didn't say this last time. I'm so sorry for all the heartache and worry I caused my friends and caused you. I worked hard every day to make sure I would never make you feel like this again and could be dependable once more. I really didn't mean to do harm here, and feel I've learned about myself in ways I didn't know I needed to. These are positive things.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lawly 9

No clue :) 05/21/2021 6:36 PM told me younger was better So I thought you'd like me more if I told you my Ge Age Chuggaaconroy 05/21/2021 6:37 PM Chat with Lawly Yeah, I would not have gone for a 14 year old when I was 18, so I can't say I agree with him there. Four years isn't so bad this far in, but at 14, you're still finding a lot of what life is and I'd see that as predatory. Yeeahhhh 05/21/2021 6:38 PM Tuh When I was inderage Underage I wanted to f--- an older guy so badly lmfao It just so happened all the predators around me were inept as f--- And I just trolled them for being thirsty Lmaooo Chuggaaconroy 05/21/2021 6:39 PM Oh my God, ooooof... I'm very thankful you didn't end up with one of those! H--------. I can see really warped your views 05/21/2021 6:44 PM He really did!! Thankfully I have O sexual attraction to people u less I love them 1** and all the thirsty weirdos didn't do it for me And I was and am an a------ So I literally justfucked with them Chuggaaconroy 05/21/2021 6:47 PM Man, here I thought you had a harmless childhood crush on me. Didn't know you wanted to f--- me asap, pahahaha... 05/21/2021 6:49 PM I am violently sexual :)

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lawly 8

Another side of this is that I confided in them as a teen about the girl I liked at the time. It's not them. [08:28] chuggaaconroy: There's this girl who I think might like me and I told her something like that last night, I swear to God, she got so risen up from her depression, hahaa 08:291 Lawly: Is she someone you know personally--or just another fan? (08:291 chuggaaconroy: She started off as a fan, she's hopefully going to this thing in June that I'm gonna be at for a few weeks. [08:29] chuggaaconroy: Pretty much all my friends are begging me to go for her in that time. hahaha 108:30] Lawly: You has an online love, eh? > W> 108:30] chuggaaconroy: I really don't know if she likes me or not, but I sorta suspect she might 108:31] Lawly: Most likely yes. I mean.. you're awesome. xD

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lawly 7

Chuggaaconroy 06/07/2021 10:04 PM Chat with Lawly I knew. At least, I was pretty sure of it. Once my mom said that, I sort of analyzed a lot of things you'd said and done. It made a lot more sense after that. 06/07/2021 10:04 PM Did you think I was a cop or something? Haha Chuggaaconroy 06/07/2021 10:04 PM I mean, I was pretty sure you were you, but I didn't want to abuse or hurt you with an unfair relationship. So regardless it was a hard no from me at the time 06/07/2021 10:07 PM Hahaha honestly? As an adult I can appreciate that you set a boundary Chuggaaconroy 06/07/2021 10:08 PM I'm glad! I was worried you wouldn't like me any more back then because I was intentionally snubbing you at least some of the time. It was something of a relief when you were happy to see me at ConBravo! 06/07/2021 10:12 PM I just figured you were busy with life and moved on haha Chuggaaconroy 06/07/2021 10:12 PM I kind of had that as a passive excuse! I was hitting the big time around then. I've always enjoyed spending time with you, but at those ages, I wasn't going to let something develop on either side. I wanted you to go find other people. You were still a kid and wouldn't have that time again.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lawly 6

Chuggaaconroy 06/07/2021 10:00 PM Based on my past rejection of you, I don't think I have to justify that I wouldn't to you, hahaha. 06/07/2021 10:00 PM You rejected me? Chuggaaconroy 06/07/2021 10:00 PM Okay, I was going to save this story for when we were in a call, but I guess this is on topic. Plus like... it's been weeks. 06/07/2021 10:01 PM Chat with Lawly Oh god What did I do Chuggaaconroy 06/07/2021 10:01 PM So that shirt you sent me My mom found that soon after I got it and asked me why the heck I had something like that I told her "my friend sent it to me She immediately goes "This girl has a crush on you. No doubt about it." I go "Oh... Well, she's 14." I was 18 at the time. My mom told me I can't associate with that and that it was dangerous, so I'd better keep my distance. As much as I liked spending time with you, I chose to slowly fade out and hope you'd find someone else. That was why I fell out of your life for a few years. 06/07/2021 10:03 PM Oh! This makes sense I was gonna say I would never have told you I had a crush on you!! Hahaha I was big chicken Chuggaaconroy 06/07/2021 10:04 PM I knew. At least, I was pretty sure of it. Once my mom said that, I sort of analyzed a lot of things you'd said and done. It made a lot more sense after that.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lawly 3

As for the "p----crush" line... I don't even remember saying it. It was 14 years ago. Probably a joke that was topical. Pedobear was an enormous meme at the time, and jokes dunking on p--------- were just what Internet humor was then. "Loli P---" was a common joke, and given her username, an easy one. I definitely learned a long time ago that these sorts of jokes aren't cool and could be hurtful to victims. Society moved on from this time many years ago, as I have too. You can see the difference between then and now by just looking at anything I type. Most of the rest of the chat is just boring talk about video games we like. Even given the time, if you still felt like that chat was getting out of hand, I agree with you. In fact, I agreed with that when I was 19! Lawly said she doesn't know why our chats ended abruptly. I can tell you exactly why. It was because I disliked the direction of these chats and how young she was, and I've told her this numerous times. After a few conversations, I took a step back and realized this could not continue. She would constantly initiate raunchy topics with my 19-year-old self. I was oblivious at first, thought it was funny shitposting, played off their behavior as a joke, and thought of them as a friend with a dirty sense of humor like many friends I had back then. [142] Lawy Fine Now possess you forever, and talk to you, and be alte 1402] Lawly see dead people" 14021 Lawy And and and DDO 14:02] Lawy Make you touch yourself in public. Insert ughter here [14:04] chuggory: Why are all the things you do to me sea? You really DO want me

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lawly 4

After a little while, things started to escalate, and they sent a sexually explicit gift to my house. It made me realize they weren't being silly. They were romantically interested in me, not the other way around. The whole thing made me and my mother uncomfortable, and after deliberation, I not only rejected them, but cut all contact with them. I actually talk about this in the log they posted, and our contact becomes a lot less frequent after that. You can see after this point, we go long periods of time without talking and I just tell her I'm busy or need to get going. I don't look exactly thrilled about this gift. [19:27] Lawly... o uo [19:27] Lawly: You got it? [19:28] chuggaaconroy:...Was waiting for you [19:28] Lawly: Well sorry my stalker senses aren't tingling. XD [19:28] chuggaaconroy: My mom told me I'm not allowed to wear the shirt, though I did not speak to this person for another 10 years - I had no intention of ever reestablishing contact. Ten years later, they approached me at a convention and that was how we became friends again. I thought after that long, she was a new person and deserved a second chance.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lawly 5

If you need more than just my word that it was joking around and I was the one who stopped it, here's proof. This is me telling this story to them in 2021 and their reaction to it. The ages are slightly off due to fuzzy memory, but this was the event that caused me to cut contact.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lawly 2

Some people were concerned about one part where I said, "I'm going to r--- you" and then said something about a video with a cat. This wasn't a serious conversation; it was a popular meme at the time and I'm sure it was quoting this video. I remember all of my friends quoting it on a daily basis back then, it was like the biggest thing ever.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lawly 1

Regarding Lawly There was a chat log shared from back in 2010 when I was 19. About this: I'm not a p--------, and I'm not a groomer. I was an idiot teenager who made dirty jokes. I had no intention of doing anything to this person, quite the opposite in fact. This post is taking two separate things over a decade apart and showing them together. When I was a teenager, I said lots of dumb things I shouldn't have. I'm 34 years old now and can't stand by anything I may have typed that long ago. I don't think anyone could. What I can do is tell you my intentions. To give an idea of how long ago that chat was: When I was 19, TRG didn't exist, I'd never appeared at a single convention, I hadn't started college, I still lived at home, I made videos as a hobby/wasn't professional, and I was working on my first Pokemon Let's Play. I don't think something that old should be treated as representative of the person I am now. In any sense. It was so long ago that I learned the contents of this log existed when you did. I was extremely hurt to be judged for something from so long ago, and that the headline was worded like I assaulted someone. The internet was a very different place then, and being facetious was everywhere. It was like our escape from censorship, and the edgier, the better. It was easy to get caught up in the moment and say things I didn't mean when I was that young, too. You need look no further than my terrible old videos for the tasteless things I thought were hilarious at that age or how my sense of humor has changed. Or how internet culture as a whole changed. It might be hard to imagine, but back then, people commonly threw around vulgar language and joked about horrible things like it was nothing.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 10

This is the tone of the conversation that led to the roleplay. I think, honestly, that it reads as pretty silly from both of us. I remember when this happened; I was just playing a video game and laughing to myself when she'd add to it because it was all so out-there and dumb. I cackled at her Sticker Star joke. My girlfriend wanted to add that Emily's decision to include personal information about her was greatly upsetting to her. Emily needlessly published the territory my girlfriend lives in; this was not public knowledge and did nothing to prove any point. In Emily's screenshots, I'm open about having a girlfriend and told her my SO was fine with all of this. Our relationship had no bearing on any of this and never needed to be brought up. I also want to say that I never lied about how this was resolved privately. In my original statement, I said "When you communicated this to me privately a few months ago, I apologized to you directly and promised I would never repeat this kind of behavior again with anyone else." I worded things that way to protect the friend who mediated, as involving others was something I wanted to avoid. I promised my friend I would never repeat this, we discussed it for hours, they told Emily how it went, and then I sent Emily this apology: Chuggaaconroy 11/18/2023 12:20 AM Name of friend who Emily reached out to talked to me about this. I apologize for everything I did. I will not reach out again. I am sorry. I never claimed we had a conversation about it. I said it was communicated privately, which it was. I don't think a friend being there contradicts that.

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 9

GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:56 PM Yeah!! But also dang! You got me! Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:56 PM Yep. I got you. hugs tighter, now a little uncomfortable I'm gonna teach you a lesson! sweeps your legs out from under you and let's go of you as I do! You fall to the floor! I grab into each of your shoes and YANK them off, leaving you barefoot! I stand back across the room from you "Ow! Gross! Does it hurt knowing that's what they really look like?" really look like?" GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 10:59 PM No no no!!!!! You can't do this to me!! Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 10:59 PM Ohhh... silly girl. I'm not done. "You won't be getting these back before your doctor's appointment! Enjoy explaining those feet to the doctor, who will undoubtedly be wanting to study them!" I turn and run out the front door holding shoes!! Eep!! Bad! Bad! You can't be seen like this in public! You need something to hide your feet with... but... I took the only two pairs of shoes or socks! GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 11:05 PM Noooo I will wrap them with a blanket Cocoon myself Chuggaaconroy 09/15/2023 11:06 PM And run outside after me like that? GreatCheshire 09/15/2023 11:06 PM I can hop >

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Chuggaaconroy April 2024 Statement on Lady Emily 11

I don't retract any apology about hurting her or pestering her for a reply. Nothing I've said changes that I did that. I just felt this important context was left out. This is what I was working with and why I was so comfortable doing this. I kept asking if it was okay and kept doing it because she said she enjoyed it. I wanted to be open with someone I cared about rather than just assume, and gave her my word that I wouldn't go into sexual territory for myself. It still wasn't a good way to act; I just hope it's understandable how I could think this way. Due to an autism spectrum disability, I struggle with understanding social cues or people's limits. I don't hide behind this as a shield from criticism; I've learned to live with it. I learned I couldn't always trust myself to say the right thing or not take things too far due to my inability to see social situations the same way as other people. Doctors have told me this is what happens with me. To make up for this weakness, I learned many years ago to be open with people, relying on permission, asking questions, and requesting others to tell me if something becomes too much. That is what I did with Emily, but despite that, she never once communicated that I said anything that made her uncomfortable until she was considering going public. I was confused when she started ignoring my messages. I don't do well with being ignored; it just makes me worry a lot about the other person because I do best with open communication. When I have nothing to work with, I can't really understand what someone is thinking, and in this case, I thought she liked how it was going. It usually leads to me just wishing each day will be the day I get to hear they're okay. I've learned now that repeated messages like this can be stressful to others. I did everything she wanted me to do once she told me she didn't like it, and took it into my own hands to get mental help and learn more about my issues. It's perfectly fine to revoke consent or decide it's getting to be too much, but this wasn't told to me; I was told the opposite of that. This isn't a case of, “I only listened when I got caught." I did listen.

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Chuggaaconroy 05/22/2021 12:08 AM Chat with Lawly But absolutely, I would not have let you do that regardless of how well we got along. 05/22/2021 12:10 AM Younger me would be disappointed Current me appreciates it Chuggaaconroy 05/22/2021 12:10 AM Hahaha, good! I'm glad you grew up.

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