All the mods are well-behaved and care about the users, and I've just been making up all these non-existent reasons against them. All this time I thought "these admins don't ever communicate and seem pretty annoyed when I try to" but really, it was me that was in the wrong for trying to communicate with the annoying autistic personality I have. The admins pay attention to suggest ideas I can feel it in their hearts, my heart chakra has just been blocked for so long I never felt their love until now. Even though they never respond to the threads in that forum I can tell, that on the inside they care.
Mods, you guys are so sweet. You perma-banned me from IRC and banned me twice a day and kicked me around ten times a day, but really I know what you were saying "we just want to help you not be so annoying". Because being annoying is truly the meanest thing you can do. I shouldn't have insisted on being myself, I should've conformed like society expects us to for all the unbiased correct reasons.
Even though I never cursed at you users, I can see now, what you really wanted was for me to curse like you guys do at me; otherwise, I'm being a weird selfish jerk on my high-horse and being weird isn't a good thing to do. In general being a different person is pretty bad when you're too different. You have to be different within the boundaries of what the people of the forums decide is different but not too different. If you insist on being yourself too much you deserve to be banned. I get that now.
And creating threads to insult specific users (outside of roasts), I used to interpret as cyber-bullying, but I realize now even though the #1 excuse for bullying is "it's just a joke", that it wasn't an excuse at all and we should target more users.
Guys, we need to be more like each other and not be free and unique, it's just mean to be so annoyingly different and insist on it. I was so persistent in posting even with all these downvotes. If I'm downvoted a lot that means I am definitely bad and should leave, I understand the message.
Mods, you should've removed me from the site the moment I started posting in the forums and IRC, I shouldn't have ever tried doing that. It's only spiralled into me being able to post like everyone else does, but in my own way that is annoying. And as I've said before if there's one thing that's horrible about me it's how annoying I am. And if I or anyone else is annoying, you should ban them permanently on the spot. And just so we understand, the definition of annoying is being too different and being downvoted a lot.
There is never a case where someone who is downvoted a lot and is disliked by the majority of the mods is right. They are 100% in the wrong always.
If someone insults you or your ideas, you have no right to disagree with them and will be downvoted for doing so; it is wrong to defend yourself in any manner, as this is also very annoying to people who want to dislike what you like. You should allow everything you've ever said ever to be openly insulted and never say anything in retort, or you are being annoying.
TL;DR: I'm sorry to all of you guys, I should never have insisted on existing in the annoying manner I do, and should have simply left this site because I have no right to be so persistently different.
