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[Just For Fun] No-fap September 2016

Last posted Oct 02, 2016 at 03:07AM EDT. Added Aug 21, 2016 at 07:26PM EDT
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Day 20: Utterly exhausted from due to all the carrying off heavy items for my brother's Eagle ceremony but fortunately things went by smoothly. Now we worry ourselves over his birthday tomorrow. Lucky bastard. Oh before I forget I got those 'movies' that superjumpman sent me. From what I can gather everyone got hentai vids. A nice effort on his part but,again, too tired to fap. Plus I made it 2/3 of the way there. I do not intend to surrender now.

Day 20 END. Currently @ Day 21, 01:52AM
Status: On-Going
Sanity: Fragile Cheerfulness

I have always wondered if actual real-life dogs likes ear scratching as much as anime dog-girls… They probably wont get aroused by it but still….

During Days 19&20:
Nothing interesting…
There's college. No chores. I still haven't folded my clean clothes. And there is another batch waiting to be washed. Speaking of cleaning, my laptop keyboard needs that too… Did homework doodles last minute, but the instructor was out the day it was due. Though it's good that I did it anyway even though I was in a hurry, because I wasn't gonna doodle the day after. Speaking of doodles AND cleaning, my drawing table is currently cluttered with stuff that is not drawing related… I can still use it for actual drawing, but still… It's quite big but it's retractable. If only it's not full of stuff, I could retract it so it's not taking up so much space…

In this two days, I haven't played any video games… GASP!! Well, I did go mining that one time on MH4U, but I can hardly call that "playing."

At around 2AM of Day 20, I thought I was getting sleepy, so I tried to actually sleep. But apparently I’m not sleepy enough to fall asleep. As usual when I’m trying to sleep if I’m not tired, I listened to ASMR. I got some tingles that was not weak, but not strong either. It finished an hour later and my sleepyness is no different than before I listened to ASMR. I could listen to another but I decided to just not do anything until I fall asleep. I also could play or watch something but I’m already lying down for an hour. My sleep schedule needs to be fixed anyway. Since I’m in a state of absolute inactivity, my mind began to wander. Fantasies about having a certain power, lewd stuff, edgy shit, the usual stuff I fantasize about. I have a hard time going to sleep without cuddling something so I’m lying on my back, hugging a pillow. My fantasizing was interrupted when I noticed I was hugging my pillow as if it was another person on top of me. It reminds me of my last day of high school. And one of the biggest regrets I have…

It was around 10AM, intercom told us seniors to go outside. Said goodbye to my circle of friends and exchanged hugs. And then, something I wasn't expecting… something I wasn't prepared for… From the seat directly to my left, the girl I was attracted to unlike any other girl before(Not in a swooning, melting-in-my-shoes-way…just… I liked her).

She had long messy hair, wore glasses, never wore those tight leggings. She was around my height. Others wont consider her their "ideal beauty." No supermodel figure either. Basically, most wont call her a "10." But I didn't care. it was actually more endearing to me. She was quiet, though I don't think she was shy. I would notice her sometimes listening intently to my circle of friends. She would make remarks every now and then but no-one really replies. I sometimes would but we just end up trailing off every time. Though, I would invite her to join in on my circle of friends' games and she would accept. She plays video games, mostly Nintendo. She even played Monster Hunter! Though she didn't like it much. Watches anime. Knows about Touhou. And recognizes references I make more than other people I know in real-life. Bottom line, I wanted to get close to her.
As I was saying my goodbyes, I notice her walk up to me, say farewell, then suddenly hug me. I hug my friends in that class regularly so hugs are a gesture of playful friendliness to me. But coming from a person I liked, It meant different to me. I freeze up for a bit, but I hugged her back. I was happy and nervous at the same time. For the first time in my life, I have loathed myself for being so goddamned shy. A hug like this I should do as tight as possible, full of feelings. But instead, I half-assed it. I gave a tiny soft little hug. It was obviously way lighter than what I gave with my friends. Of course, few hours later, I was absolutely happy. It was only days after that I realized I could've had a better hug.

I have her facebook so we can still get in touch. It's not like we we're in very bad terms. We didn't mind each others' presence. We won't talk to each other heavily outside of class activities, but that's probably because were both really quiet. In Japanese class I would sit beside her.
Though honestly, I think of all of this ordeal from my own perspective. I haven't actually given much thought from her perspective. It may actually be very awkward for her. I'm the kind of person that may be embarrassing to be seen with. At that time, I had no care of what other people see me do(Except my pervertedness). I didn't care I was lying down on the floor taking a nap in the open. I was open about my interest in the Ponies. I don't act very manly. I did stuff other people wouldn't do without thinking twice. It may have been uncomfortable for her that I'm acting friendly towards her. She may have taken my half-assed hug the wrong way. Heck, she may only have hugged me because others were doing it.

I can't really say anything on her behalf. I don't know any of her thoughts. I haven't seen or heard from her since…

After a while thinking about hugs, my mind goes back to the usual stuff. And then I thought “Hey, I haven’t seen genitals going inside each other for quite sometime now.” I mean, I have in my mind, but not actually looking at some in front of my eyes. And not in a way that actually lets it sink in. So I go to them boorus and looked up stuff I actually masturbate to. Well, I don’t really need to point out that I got aroused. My hand started to drift down but stopped myself. The stiffness and tingly feeling was the same as my previous arousal episodes. Normally this would cost me most of my SAN, but since I actively looked it up and felt quite awake, it only ate at my SAN for a considerable chunk, but not enough to put me in danger. The previous times the lecherous thoughts I had were out of nowhere and only that, thoughts. These cases my mind was all out on the “This is lewd, fap to it now” thing. Also, those times, I either just woke up or just about to fall asleep. I’m quite grumpy when I’m very sleepy. Basically, same case but different mentality so it didn’t case as much SAN damage.

My arousal lasted for a while after I stopped looking at gifs. I’m still lying down doing nothing trying to sleep, though I started to think about listening to Sleep hypnosis on Youtube. The idea started because someone in this thread talked about sleep hypnosis and said it was great. ASMR is similar and has strong effects. Also a hypnotist went to high school for an all-night seniors event and his stuff worked on me. I was sure that those sleep hypnosis video will work. At around 4:30AM, I got up and ate cereal while staring at an OC, hoping that it will show up in my dreams(It didn’t). I lay down, opened my laptop, and closed my eyes. 5 minutes in and I still don’t feel anything. I try to relax and my body did feel heavy, but my mind wont stay quiet. I didn’t feel very different when the video finished. I popped out a 2nd one and the same thing happened: Not much. I know the main thing for this is “don’t resist” but I can’t make my mind go silent. Though I fell asleep in the middle of the second one but that’s probably because it’s 6AM already and it’s this time I start to get sleepy enough to actually fall asleep. I woke at 3:15PM via alarm as usual. Felt a bit nicer but not by any significant amount.

PS: Reports are either Too Many Information or Too Few Information. I either go all out or not even try. I just can't get myself to be on a middle ground. So just screw it, I'm putting details… (I do hate that my reports take 2 hours to make)

EDIT: What is it about Spoilers making text smaller even though they're outside the thing? Also, Am I breaking some rules by posting huge walls of text that could pass off as essay papers?

Last edited Sep 21, 2016 at 06:22AM EDT

EDIT: What is it about Spoilers making text smaller even though they’re outside the thing? Also, Am I breaking some rules by posting huge walls of text that could pass off as essay papers?

Sometimes spoilers mess up the text for various reasons, but it usually has to do with the positioning of the code:
- Don't start a new line with a space.
- After you typed the div class="spoiler" line, hit enter twice. Same for having a white line at the end before the /div code.

I'm on mobile, which gives no display issues by default, so I mod hijacked your post to fix it. Tell me if it worked.

Also there is a limit on post length build in the side code, so don't worry about your essays. If it has too many characters, it won't post but you're free to split it up in 2 posts.

Last edited Sep 21, 2016 at 06:26AM EDT

Mission Log: Day 21, 1709 hrs

Had another close call last night but managed to fend it off, but damn was it strong. My defenses still hold. Need to be more careful when trying to develop resistance, especially when mentally fatigued.

Just waiting on the final strike from L-Squad to see the fruits of my labor. After that, it'll be smooth sailing until the end of the month.

Mission Status: Active
Alert Level: Orange

Last edited Sep 21, 2016 at 08:09PM EDT

Day 21: Still in.
Events; I went to the doctor today. Got prescribed with antidepressants. Also got my blood drawn. Nearly passed out though. Hey at least I was making jokes the whole time. Even as I was being walked to a table to lay down on.
Went to my grandparents as well and talked about MGS and Doom. As well as game development.

I even finally got a desk today. Now I don't have to sit on my bed all the time.
Yay.

If you're wondering how it felt to get my blood drawn. The needle felt like someone lightly tapped my arm, and the blood being drawn didn't feel like anything. I for the sake of a laugh said "Ow," when the needle went in.

Day 21.
I don't know what I did in the middle of the night but man my dick is extremely sore today. Other than that I'm still fine. I think.

Homura's Homutown

DokiDoki_EienNi

IndignantCynic

UltimateScorpion

He Who Has Not Been Named

Henry from Another Dimension

A-Train

Yunpol

Evil-Tree

Masterdragoon57

Sagara

Arcanine

Shulk Heir to the Monado

Freakenstein

Sergeant Arch Dornan

Skimpy Crusader

Mudkip Master

Cipher_Oblivion

Gnairly

Nectarine

S1MP50N (local AFOL)

StoneColdKillerWhale

Cecaelia Girlie

KirbyfanNeox

L0rdtr3k

More Metals

Xin

Also hooray Senran Kagura 5th anniversary and new game in 2017. I sure hope the game isn't PS4 exclusive or else I'm going to riot and begrudgingly buy a PS4 Pro.

I got an idea when their 24 contestants left, we should have someone host a BrantSteele Hunger Games Simulator round with the remaining 24 contestants and the winner can get a minor achievement or something.

Day 21: Nothing today but boring and frustrating classes. I have no idea why nighttime English classes have to be two hours and forty-five minutes long. I also struggled with saran wrap for thirty minutes trying to get some briskets and mac n' cheese before deciding 'fuck it' and cutting the damn thing off. Tonight I might try to watch the hentai vids that superjumpman sent. The first vid was a second episode. So I decided to watch the first episode and I must admit, this is interesting. When October rolls around, I might fap to it. Until then, my hand must withdraw.

Status
Still in

Day 21 END. Currently @ Day 22, 04:17AM
Status: On-Going
Sanity: Sickly Chipper
Anticipation Eeh…

@RandomMan
Whatever thing you did to my previous post worked. Fonts are now normal sized.

If Tutti Sound and CarrotWine has "Cinematic Orchestra," Then Kitsune's Workshop would be "Video Game Orchestra."

Around 4:30AM yesterday when I finished my report, I tried to go to sleep. Had trouble for a bit. But then suddenly, I started to feel really hot. Then I felt dizzy. Few moments later, I was shivering, hair standing on end, even though it wasn't cold. I suddenly had a fever out of nowhere. I felt terrible until I fell asleep. Had a dream, but couldn't remember it by the time of writing this report. When I woke up, my temperature went down but I still got headaches. Also woke up 3 hours earlier without an alarm. Had cup ramen and toast for lunch. Since I was feeling horrible at the time, I wanted to watch some Slice of Life anime. I wasn't in a middle of a series so I started a new one: "Himouto Umaru-Chan." When it was time to prepare to go to class, I was feeling good enough to work. Skipping class is fine and all but in college, I need all the class time. Skipped class is time not spent working on projects. When I got there, My first thought was "I don't wanna!!!" Must be the show show I watched influencing me… Managed to get a good amount done so it's all good. First thing I did when I got home was lie down. Boner even though I wasn't having lewd thoughts… Felt nice when I left it out in the open instead of being forced inside my undie. Few minutes late, I got up for dinner and watched some more Umaru. Had to wait for someone in the bathroom so I could brush my teeth. Lied down on the living room sofa and admired Umaru's Brother for a bit. Has work he doesn't mind, friendly co-workers, does all the house chores, and survives having a spoiled brat for a sister. I look at myself… Puts in absolutely zero effort into improving skills that is necessary for my career, messy room, piled up laundry(Still haven't folded those clean clothes), and lives in mother's basement… uuuuuuuuggggggghhhhhhhh….

I then start to fantasize being an cheapstake apartment tenant who doesn't interact with my neighbors. A neighbor couple with a "Our family is normal, Shut Up!!!" complex visits and gets uncomfortable due to no Heating in a cold day(Gotta save them electricity bills, yo!) and closed curtains(Bright lights hurt me eyes). Oh and there's a 5 foot tall fully dressed doll/puppet with hair and animu face who I named "Maru"(From MARgatroid) in the corner… Brief flashes of lewd imagery with said doll appeared… Her face devoid of any life-bearing emotions while being done things to…

The person in the bathroom finishes and I brush my teeth, go to my room, watch some Lost Pause, and contemplate whether to write a report or not… Also feels like having some strawberry milk right now, but I don't really want to get up, go upstairs, and make myself some…

No vidya gaems again. Feels mildly depressed but playing will distract me from it. Too mentally tired to play.

Not much lewd events until I went home from class. Although it's scaring me a bit that I am so thirsty that my mind is starting to think about some really uncomfortably lewd stuff… For example, a short disgusting dream about getting frisky with someone old, ideas of zalgo R34… fucking ZALGO R34, The Grudge ghost BJs, and sex with lifeless wooden animu dolls. These are not thoughts I had before NFS. And something outside of fantasies… I have considered trying this out. An Item I see as quite pathetic, I have thought about using.
Withdrawals man… Scary shit right there…

Uncomfortable stuff aside…
I'm actually feeling pretty good about abstaining. I see people hyping up the end. I'm starting to feel like I couldn't back down now. We're so close! I think I gained the ability that turns lost SAN from resisting into Anticipation(ANTP)!
October 1… Saturday…
I am going to feel SO GOOD!!

PS: You know how like in multiple choice quizzes and you're not sure about some questions so you just answer the most probable and you get to another question that makes you doubt your previous guesses and you change them. Only to find out later that your answers before was actually the right ones…

superjumpman wrote:

To give some motivation to y'all. Here's a sneak peek at the badges the winners'll receive.

Regular

Hard mode

Even though I personally don't care much about the badges, I can appreciate that there was a decent bit of effort put into making them. So good on you.

Day 21 aand I'm out. The temptation of the hypno thingies was too strong (1st fail) and then she had to catch me flat-footed with a fap order just on the edge. Superjump, if you care to, I'll drop a link in a couple minutes if you care for bloodshed.

Day 22

I'm still in
I can't help but notice I never got any acknowledgement from the Lewd squad this year. I mean I wouldn't say anything, this is about the second year where the official lewd squad ignored me. But hey, I guess its a blessing in disguise.

Mission Log: Day 22, 1558 hrs

Other than slight tiredness due to allergies or me possibly catching a cold, I'm currently feeling pretty good. My "resistance training" (for lack of better words) may finally be paying off. This last week will be a piece of cake.

Victory is in my grasp. Molon labe.

Mission Status: Active
Alert Level: Orange

Last edited Sep 22, 2016 at 06:59PM EDT

Day 22: Nothing especially unique has happened today. The only thing standing out being a TeamFourStar stream of the Kingdom Hearts games. Seriously people check out those streams on Youtube. They're pretty good. Speaking of Youtube, I have only just began to comprehend just how stupid the people who run the damn site are. Seriously wishing for decent competition so people will leave these chucklefucks.

Status:Still in.

Another one bites the dust.

Homura's Homutown

DokiDoki_EienNi

IndignantCynic

UltimateScorpion

He Who Has Not Been Named

Henry from Another Dimension

A-Train

Yunpol

Evil-Tree

Masterdragoon57

Arcanine

Shulk Heir to the Monado

Freakenstein

Sergeant Arch Dornan

Skimpy Crusader

Mudkip Master

Cipher_Oblivion

Gnairly

Nectarine

S1MP50N (local AFOL)

StoneColdKillerWhale

Cecaelia Girlie

KirbyfanNeox

L0rdtr3k

More Metals

Xin

Skeletor-sm

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