I've managed to finally get through the last episode without my feels trying to eat me…
…And I'm detecting a pattern. Since both of these "Rainbow Eyed" episodes have tried to use the same approach to hit me in the feels.
The ponies are going all out to help their friends… Hit with moral crisis… Realize they were a jerk… Quick turnabout to do the right thing… Get what they were trying to get by being a jerk anyways, but only because they decided to do the right thing.
…Oh… And for Rainbow dash specifically, her attempt to fake being hurt is enough to drive me to frothing at the mouth for cringe inducing.
(Why is obvious and badly done deceit so cringe inducing for me?)
But… Now to speak of why the two episodes, and probably the ones to come, are trying to be so feels punching.
They're tempting the ponies towards fulfilling their highest dreams they have at the moment… Only to make them feel like they have to give up either their morals or their dreams.
…And then the weird part… Is that in giving up their dreams for their morals… They still get their dream anyways.
I… Don't know why… But that second part seems way too sad and fantastic an idea. It seems impossible form where I stand for anything to come without a price to personal feelings or personal gain.
For me personally… If I ever want to feel like I actually have any control over anything, or that my ideas and opinions matter… It seems like I have to do it myself… And yet I can't get anywhere on my own due to the fact every industry is run on teamwork.
The only rectification of all this… Also happens to be horrible… I.E. become a dictatorial jerk.
So it seems the only way for me to live where I both feel in control, and nobody else is inconvenienced… Is apparently the path that most involves dwelling in obscurity.
This is, at its core… A similar dilemma to what the Mane six are going through one by one… And yet they seem to be let off the hook by divine karma, which doesn't exactly happen in real life.
…I… Am… So conflicted about this…
I'll probably fall apart if I have to go through this exact same problem five or six times in a row.
…Wow… This is way too much mixed up in my own personal problems… I should just find a vaguely appropriate image to distract from all this.
Anyways… on to more important questions… Does the fact RD got a Wonderbolt Pin from Spitfire mean she's now a Wonderbolt?
And… Judging from Spitfire's reaction to RD's moral conscious moment… Rumors of her being a jerk are mildly exaggerated.
…Granted, Spitfire is still slightly a jerk, enough for me to drop the Paladin like image of her, but it's more pragmatic than maligned… If that makes sense.
She respects those with moral character… But isn't necessarily as bound to them herself, possibly implying that she doesn't see things as black or white, but more wildly varying shades of grey.
…which ironically gives me a new image of her for use in a story of heavier fantasy influence than already exists in canon… In that she'd probably fit more a roguish role than a noble warrior.
(Wait… Maybe it would have been easier for me to say if I wanted to make a spiritual successor to my old canceled fanfic… Urgh… Never mind.)